FOUR O'CLOCK

2/18/69-7/26/18

My dear friend Amye died one week ago today. California has the End-of-life Option Act where terminally ill patients can choose to take medication to end their lives. There is a sequence of events that precede this last step; multiple visits to physicians, a psychiatrist and a pharmacist. Amye chose this option as she was so ready to go. From the initial cancer diagnosis eight months ago, Amye knew there was no cure. One thing I loved about Ayme was her ability to tell her truth. She was a straight shooter and had strong beliefs.

There are about 90 capsules that need to be opened and poured into a glass. Then you add water to dissolve the mixture. At four o’clock, without hesitation, Ayme drank the medication. Within five minutes she was in a deep sleep. For the next seven and a half hours, the only movement was Ayme’s breathing. She looked so peaceful and calm the entire time.

At her death, her face was so beautiful. She had a slight smile which let us all know she made it to the other side. I felt a sense of relief knowing that Ayme did things her way and was at total peace. For her, it doesn’t get any better than that. God Bless you dear Ayme. You will always be remembered in all of our hearts.


FOUR O'CLOCK

I was driving back to the office
when I noticed the clock said four.
It is exactly one week ago today,
at that exact time, when you willingly
          swallowed those pills.

Within five minutes you were in a deep sleep.
For the next seven hours you did not move at all.
The only action involved was your breathing.
Your face was so calm; you were in peace.

You always wanted to remain in control;
never wanting to be dependent.
We all were honored and truly blessed
to witness your final farewell.

I hope you felt the love surrounding you
as we quietly said our goodbyes.
Yes, we all were so sad and grieving,
but knew you were flying high.

I will miss your sarcastic humor.
You and I laughed all of the time.
Thank you for sharing your life with me;
          your greatest gift of all.

At four o'clock all of our lives did change.
It is something I will always remember.
But never forget, dear Amye,
your legacy will always
          and forever
                   continue on.