SO SAD

"Randy", a twenty-two year old, suffered from testicular cancer. He lived with his fiancee, "Carol". He had just proposed to her a few weeks before we met.

Randy was only on hospice two weeks before he died. He was very weak and stated that his first priority was his family and friends. He wanted them to visit, but due to his weakness, it was a demanding chore for him. He felt bad about wanting the visits to be short, but didn't want to be rude. He was always thinking of others.

The last few days before Randy died, he was in a lot of pain, although still concerned about being a bother to his family. The family brought Randy to the Emergency Room because they felt they could not manage his pain. He died a few hours later while in the hospital.

When I heard the news that Randy had died, my first reaction was total sadness. I felt better after speaking with his family. His grandmother felt that Randy wasn't suffering any longer and was in a better place. Randy's mother said that because he was in the hospital, all they had to do was love Randy. They didn't have to be his caregivers any longer. She said that it was comforting in the way everything played out.

It makes one wonder why someone so young has to die. Randy was wise beyond his years and maybe it was just his time to go as his work was done. I would like to believe he is needed more in another place. I am sure he continues to touch hearts and souls. I just know he touched mine.

SO SAD

I only met him two weeks ago.
I hardly knew him at all.
But he immediately tugged at my heart strings.
He was the sweetest guy.

I was shocked to hear of his sudden death.
I couldn't believe it was true.
There must have been some mistake.
Somehow it felt all wrong.

I just know that I feel so sad.
It's hard to explain why.
Probably because he was so young,
but then, he was one of the good guys.

Why is one's life cut so short
while another would survive?
There is no rhyme or reason.
Someday it would be nice to understand why.

His suffering is forever over.
We know he is in a better place.
But I am so sad for his family;
for his fiancee who shared his dreams.

I cannot even imagine the pain in their hearts.
The finality of it all must be surreal.
They will experience what they need to experience,
and as for me,
for a short while,
I'll just feel
a little sad.