Saturday, April 20, 2019

HELLO

My cousin, Jack, was diagnosed with Lou Gehrig’s Disease two months ago. His first symptom was five months ago when his left leg became very weak. He has the most accepting attitude since diagnosis. Whereby two months ago, he was living alone; he now is residing in a Board and Care home in order for his needs to be met. He is declining on a daily basis, becoming weaker all of the time.

He no longer can talk on the phone as his voice has no projection. In addition, he can no longer text messages or send e-mails. His sister, Judy, visits Jack daily as she lives nearby. Jack has asked that all of our communication go through her. I so respect his decision to handle things his way, but it is so hard as I so want to be there by his side.

I have come to terms that following his wishes is helping him. I have, and will continue to communicate to Jack through Judy. Jack knows how much I love him and will, at any moment he needs, be there for him.

It is so hard to say goodbye when one wants to just say "Hello". It has made me feel so blessed that I have so many people in my life that I still am able to tell them, “Hello” whenever I want. Life is such a blessing for all of us. I know afterlife will be profound and wonderful as well. It comforts me to know that we all will be together again.


HELLO 

You were only recently diagnosed,
but your decline has been swift.
No longer able to talk on the phone;
no more texting or communicating at all.

You requested no more visits;
wanting to do this part alone.
I so want to be there by your side
to once again just say, "Hello".

My heart is breaking as I am slowly,
every day, starting to say, "Goodbye."
No longer able to talk with you;
no more playing our online games.

We saw each other all of the time.
Having dinner and playing cards;
laughing so hard, tears would flow,
          or just talking on the phone.

I know we all will meet up again one day.
And it will be at the most perfect time,
for both of us to happily, again,
tell each other a heartfelt and wonderful,
          “Hello”.
 

1 comment:

  1. He is such a fun & beautiful person. I too love & respect his attitude about this. I know how very close you are with him. Your poem is perfect

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